Writing

Enigma

/A new species of flower, a rare jewel/

/A unique tiger’s eye stone/

/Whilst I dream of your wonder and cool/

/Here I am, all alone/

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/My mystery, hopeful mine to crack/

/And not some other sleuthing detective’s/

/I am afraid, but also willing to break my back/

/Building a connecting bridge that will be reflective/

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/Of my feelings for my conundrum/

/An older one than my years/

/I have hoped for a puzzle, and here is one/

/Making me smile amongst my tears/

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/You give me happiness, you make me stymied/

/You make me angry, and well aware/

/Of the great, steep wall that I am trying to shimmy/

/The wall that is my personification, one I must dare/

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/To continue standing against my attacks, this wall/

/Which I have built so ignorantly in earlier times/

/That now I am trying to destroy, although I fall/

/Many falls, but one day, I will prevail, by and by/

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/And hopefully that will be with you/

/The one so different, even though I’ve said this before/

/But since first I saw you, I knew/

/That I hoped you will be the one to open the locked door/

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/My breathtaking enigma, my god-like sphinx/

/Although, I know that sooner or late/

/That my crush, will fade and I will think/

/That I was glad that this had abate/

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/But until that fateful day, that unlucky time/

/I hope that you will continue to be mine/

/My enigma/

By Asia Murphy 14

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A Cardboard Wall

/A cardboard wall is all that protects me from the elements/

/And it’s slowly wearing down/

/A downpour of rain soaks it/

/A blazing fire burns it/

/An icy snowfall frosts it/

/A howling wind blows it/

/A cardboard wall, debilitated and broken, is all that protects me/

/From the elements/

/The elements I’d rather not face/

/And it’s slowly falling apart…/

By Asia Murphy 14

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Self Depression

Darkness consumes me
Fading from the lives around me
I am slowed by the darkness
A darkness I myself created
A billowing cloud that only I can see and hear

By Heather Toliver 17


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Leaving the Group

Nothing lasts once your gone
Everything disappears
Even if your near
It's just so far
It just can't last
It's not their fault
They just don't have the time
Only the one
Who's so far away
Yet so near
Tries
Makes the time
But the one can not
When the others will not

By Heather Toliver 17

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Rejecting the future,

My life is a blur.

Too slow: Too fast.

Maybe it's not moving at all.

I try to sleep a dreamless slumber.

Only to drift into memories

Memories of times when I was young, innocent and pure.

Only to feel his hands on my growing soul:

Touching me.

Crushing me.

Killing me.

Family and friends

No one understands:

The shame I have,

The self worth I've lost,

Why did he do this to me?

Forgive and forget,

These words echo in my head.

But my mind cannot cope

Cannot forgive,

Cannot forget.

I wonder sometimes,

Sitting alone in my room,

What it feels like to be normal:

To look in the mirror,

And like what I see.

Why can't I do this?
What's wrong with me?

In a crowded room,

I feel alone.

I can pretend I am okay –

Pretend nothing is wrong.

But when I come home

And my eyes start to flutter.

The forgotten memories & abuse,

Slices through me.

And I feel his touch, his breath, his smell.

I wish I felt nothing.

I wish I dreamt nothing.

I want to move on.

I want to be happy.

I find myself craving sadness,

Worry, and grief.

I feel at peace with loneliness,

Depression, and pain.

I hope one day –

I won't feel so much hurt.

I won't cringe when I'm touched,

In the most loving way.

I hope, I hope –

One day.

By Natasha Fish

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Drifting Apart